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seriously i still have 1 more painting to go ... How am i gonna finish this in 2 days ? arghhhh .... It's killing me.

Monday - have presentation for Malaysia Art History plus English 2 Test.

Tuesday - Presentation for Port Folio 1 of Oil painting

Wednesday - have to finish half of final assignment of painter.

Thursday - Sculpture and Constrution Presentaion.

ps: GREAT ! Tomorrow is Sunday but i have to bring my Oil painting to school for set up and discuss our the presentation on Monday. FML ! Well, it's never end... I will stay over at campus and do my Oil painting ... I want a break ! Please... One word for myself = superwoman .

These photo take by my Golden Half. I love it so much. Wish to go Penang again because i missed the chance to go and grab second hand stuff. Something like suitcase and vintage stuff. I guess me, Iryn and Von will become crazy if we go there. Because we will shop like a mad woman. Hahaha. Actually, Penang is a good place for shopping. I wish to go again!

Ps: I wish to buy a Lumix camera and another lomo camera. Omg! gonna spend alot $ for camera but IDFK... I wanna snap more picture and play with my camera. ^^

Seriously , I realize '' family '' is really important to me. I really don't know why am I felt insecure when my parent told me they gonna go China for trip. They go for 1 week. And they going today. I know they will come back after 1 week. Now, I feel so empty and I know that im kinda silly.

Actually, is me and sister send my parent to airport but end up. They call the cab send them to airport. After that day i sent you to airport. I hate to send someone to airport. I hate the feeling. But, as a daughter i hope i can send them to airport. Before my parent leave. My mum hug me and said love me. And I said i love you to my mummy. This is my first time i said to my mummy. I glad that i said it to her. I hug my dad too. The house is so empty right now. Left four of us.

Don't worry about us. I will take care of our house and lil brothers.I wish you both enjoy your trip in China. Do take care of yourself at there. I miss you and love you, DADDY and MUMMY~

ps: i miss my parent ~ i miss '' YOU ''

I lose for the competition.

And, I felt that why am I so useless. Why i can't did anything to let my parent feel proud of me ? I totally feel disappointed on myself. I live for 20 years but I din't did any things to maked my parent feel proud of me. Except for the photography competition but i just get 3rd runner up. I know there still have a lot of changes for me but I want this so badly. Not only because the cash prize but I really win something related to art. I want my parent feel proud of me that i studying fine art. Somehow, i know my mother was disappointed but she cheer me up. I'm SORRY, daddy mummy. I know you both love me. I will gambateh and fight for my future because i really hope that you both will feel proud to have me as your daughter in one day. I love you.

Actually i had a plan for my lovely friday. But, i changed my plan because me and bao haven bought present for wan teng so we headed to Pavilion. Plus, her beloved monkey wanted to eat Snowflake. And me craving for my mocha frapuccino. Reached pavilion around 5. We wanted to buy bikini for Wan Teng but all the swim suit are sucks. Finally, we bought her present from Forever 21. Then, we went to Starbucks while waiting for Monkey. She reached around 6. Then, Gossip time with my 2 dearest. Afterward we headed to the birthday party. Meet a lot of high school friends. LOL. Ciaoz around 12. Thanks for my lovely driver and bao. I love the instax picture so much. It's NICE ~

I know my parent love me a lot. And, i don't need others to tell me about it. Just shut your mouth, okay ?

I love my parent a lot too.

I have so many assignment to do. Being an art student is not easy at all. Especially, FINE ART student. I have no idea how to finish my assignment. It's make me crazy.

1. 15 pieces of painter

2. Digital art report

3. 3 Oil painting + report

4. English presentation

5. Sculpture

ps: I focus on my diet plan more than my assignment ^^

I want to be pretty ~ Can I ?

sigh~

I still remember the sentence you wrote on our love book. No matter what happen, don't ever give up this relationship . We are gonna be so far apart from each other. I just want you to understand we can't always give explanations to each other. I just want you to understand me. I promise you that I will never GIVE UP on our love. Because I can't afford to lose you anymore! I wanna come back to you again and we will never ever be seperated anymore. I wanna live with you and lastly.

Baby, i'm sorry. No matter what happen, I won't give up. I want to tell you that you are my only one when you are back to me. Please tweet me when you see this. I miss you so much with my swollen eyes too.

ps : listen '' this time '' by wonder girls before sleep and hug the 2 tshirt you give everyday. It make me sleep more comfortable and i can feel your heart with me.

Sometimes, you don't realize what you said is really hurt me . Yes, maybe you think that i have start the fight first. Ya, baby... I admit that i treat you cold but i don't know why i did that. Baby, do know you how much i miss you ? Do you know i miss you ? It's really hard for me to wait you for 9month. Everyday, I tell myself that you will come back for me soon. Only 9 month, I gonna see you. But, I think i haven face the fact you already leave me. You're in Leeds, United Kingdom now. So far away from Malaysia.

Yesterday, i pass by the dkl place that you used to wait me. My tears roll down. I wish to see your car at there and waiting for me to hang out. I know that is not possible at all. Few days ago, yam cha with lulu and bao at Gilly Cafe. This is our favourite cafe. Hmm ... as usual ,we sit at smoking area and i bought 1 box cigg. Smoke like a mad woman. I miss you so badly and i tried to hold back my tears. I remember that we always complain very cold at there. The night without you, I don't felt cold. Maybe lulu and bao felt i'm weird because they keep told me very cold. Baby, i miss the day we spent at Gilly Cafe. Miss the 'xie xie xie boom boom boom' . Miss everything we did in Gilly Cafe.

Baby, i miss you so much. Sorry i have hurt you. I not meant to said that. I think I want more attention from you and I think i miss you so much. I know you gonna give me up and think that im not that understanding or positive girlfriend. Never mind, no matter what happen i will support you. Ily, baby .

seriously, everything is OVER ~